I'm gonna keep the big spoiler reveal for next journal and try to address what the issue is that I have been seeing from the comments I got.
I love Nel. I really do. I can explore avenues with him that I could never explore with other characters. And this avenue I really want to explore. Because it makes the tragedy of what happened for ten thousand years so much more tragic, so much stronger than it ever was.
But the issues brought up by one person, shows me something very sad.
That like Nel, our society wants everything to be safe, fluffy, soft, and unchallenging. And that is the underlying theme of Neltharion's own struggles.
That is why I wanted to write about Neltharion's story. I wanted to challenge the perception of what we saw when we look at this...
When we see that, we don't see a character, we see a monster that we need to kill off because the game tells us that we do. Because the script writers and coders tell us that we do.
We are not allowed to explore his character outside of the game, even when we have the expanded information from the books and the wiki. We are not allowed to explore his character. Because Blizzard has to play it safe and make sure we aren't allowed to think. He was an asshole in the game, well, we have to make sure he stays an asshole, even when he was good.
That way, the player and the reader doesn't have to think about the tragedy of the fall when it happens. It also means that we the player and the readers don't have to do much work and try to understand him beyond the big scary dragon we know. Or to understand WHY his tragic fall was so great. He deserves it, then we killed him and loot him, and that's the end. Not much work in that at all.
And I get that. We as a species are lazy, we are designed to be lazy. In fact all species are designed to be that. Laziness is actually necessary so that we don't use too much energy in our lives. Laziness helps conserve energy. Because energy is not free. And being humans, we eat a lot of food to power that huge brain of ours. And the last thing we need is to read something that challenges our reality, because that expends too much energy.
But that's the key word here. Challenges. And that's what Neltharion is all about.
Neltharion as he is in the story is a being who faces challenge after challenge. And most of the time he does it alone. He's also very emotionally unstable. And he doesn't want to be challenged because of this emotional instability. He wants to put that on someone else, use a blanket to hide under. Be around soft things. Hell in the Coffer
I made that point apparent when Neltharion was rolling around on a fur pelt. He enjoyed the tactile softness of the fur.
He's hypersensitive, so he has a thing about tactile objects. He his sensitivity hates hard and sharp objects. He likes soft things. He wants things to be easy for him because right now his mind alone is a huge mess.
He wants someone to lean upon, to help him. And he had that once. Calia. She was his crutch, she was his security blanket, she was his consort for the moment. But she didn't like to having to deal with him. Neltharion was too much for her to handle and that's why she left. But there is another in Neltharion's life, one who knows him, knows him more than anyone else...but unfortunately she's dead.
I'm talking about Sintharia.
(And some of you might be wondering if the relationship between Malygos and Neltharion makes the relationship between Neltharion and Sintharia invalid. It does not. Due to the nature of dragons being polygamists in Azeroth, she would have welcomed such a relationship. Because it would also create a stronger bond between two flights. Hell, because of Nel and Mal, there was probably no doubt that Sindragosa and Sintharia might have enjoyed each other's time together as well. Again, as a means to strengthening the relationships between the two fights. This relationship has a meaning.)
Neltharion loved Sintharia so much. And he hurt her. And that continues to bug him to no end. What has been done to her time and time again still haunts him to this day. He is also very protective of her grave. I probably should point out that Neltharion tends to get very pissed off if some adventurer goes around and defaces Sintharia's final rest. It is the utmost insult to him that someone would do such an act upon his beloved Sintharia.
But she can do nothing to help him, so now he has to find another. Well, there is another. And he may be dead, but he's around.
Honestly, I get it. We live in such a society that anything that challenges our views, we have to attack with full force to make the person do what we want.
I know, I've done that before. Trust me, its why I get into so many arguments on the web, because I see something that challenges my reality and I gotta shoot it down to justify my views and make everything in my head safe again.
And isn't that what this is about when I got that reply? Putting our ears in our heads and yelling: LALALALA NOT LISTENING!
Granted, I am happy to hear that MOST of you are actually wanting to see how this plays out so long as it plays out with respects to the characters and their personalities and their emotions.
And that is what I hope to do. I am not going to rape the characters for my own selfish desires or fantasies. That is not where it is going to go. But to dismiss that such intimate interactions never happened at least in the past is kinda silly as well. It is.
You know who else got intimate with Neltharion? Calia. A lot. Hell there were times when Calia used sex to control Neltharion. Subconsciously, it was her way of getting back at Deathwing. And Neltharion was willing to comply, due to the intimate interaction of being with someone and not feeling alone, and also because...it was subconsciously his way of apologizing to her for Deathwing.
Hell, I even had a moment in which they did just that in The Hammer's Fall.
Go and read it. They do get intimate. Twice Neltharion tries to get into her pants. Once in the woods, the other at the inn in front of the innkeeper, and yeah both those times, she pushed him off.
But then there was Mt. Hyjal. Neltharion and Calia got it on. They had sex.
But for some strange reason, that was okay. Nel being a bit horny around Calia, and then finally scoring the touchdown. Hell at the end of the Coffer, there's something that happened off screen between him and Calia. They had sex.
There's a side story that happens between the Coffer and the Hammer that gives more details to that ending scene. And yes it is explicit. But it is there, it is written, and it did happen.
In Wrath of the Warchief
, I cut out another scene between Neltharion and Calia. To keep the rating as it is. But they did have sex.
And Nel maintained the network with his flight off screen. Most of those explicit and challenging scenes happened off screen, but they still happened. And it is still in there.
The stories aren't about them having sex, however, it's gonna happen regardless.
Yaoi fanfics are mostly about the sex anyways, with little to no character development. And yes, lots of derailing. Is that the issue? Is that the challenge?
No, but this is.
Neltharion has a chance to rekindle a deep relationship with someone who is more than willing to take on every bit of pain Nel has. All his insecurities, and be someone that he can finally count upon. Hell, Malygos could teach Neltharion how to be a proper leader again. Neltharion has lost so much of his memory of who he was, what his culture is like. And through the relationship, he could be taught again.
Even more so, Neltharion could teach Malygos to truly appreciate mortals. You know, that thing that caused the Nexus War. It allows Malygos to grow as a character as well and also explores his problems. And Mal has a lot of problems of his own.
But some of you have issues with this idea, even if it happened in the past.
But for some strange reason, you all had no qualms about Calia having a relationship with technically her rapist.
Hmmm...that says something about our society. Or at least the "conservative readerbase" comment. Well, at least I know who voted for Mitt Romney. You know, the guy who said that a woman getting pregnant by her rapist is God's way of saying, "it was meant to be". Yeah.
Hmmmm....I guess some of you believe we women are equipped with some magical anti pregnancy defence mechanism that keeps us from being pregnant, and if we get pregnant, well that's on us, isn't it? We obviously were doing God's will. By allowing our rapist's sperm to come in contact with our egg.
And each time when I have hope for our growing society, I get reminded why we are still the ignorant monkeys we are.
I will say this though, the stories I write about Neltharion are supposed to make you think. I want you to think. I also want to challenge you. Hell, here's the challenge you all need to think about...why are we putting human convictions and morals upon a society that is obviously NOT human? Isn't that the goal of speculative fiction? Trying to figure out whether or not some society that isn't our own would act like us or not?
Why are we so sure that the dragons on Azeroth would have the same morals, values, and even needs as we do? Which is why I am interesting in speculating on how a society that uses bisexuality as one of the means to strengthen their ties. And no, dragons in this story don't hump each other 24 hours a day. That's just stupid.
Hell, I ask this same question when it comes to the culture of the Blitzardi. I challenge a lot of thoughts when it comes to the Blitzardi.
You know what the Blitzardi do that we don't like? Eugenics. And yes, they do take it to the extremes that the Nazis did too. Making superbeings and believing themselves as superior because of it. But in the current story, these are the good guys. And the eugenics is still entrenched into their culture. They don't see it as an evil like we do.
And Neltharion's not gonna do that either. But he is going to try and find some way to help his dying flight. He does need females to help him with that, preferably females that aren't related to him. But he also needs males. He needs a balance between the two, equal parts of each other so that his flight can sustain itself.
We humans are fortunate. We live in a world of 7 billion homosapiens. Our species is not dying. So maybe we can't understand what that would be like for someone who is.
And it's not just his species, guys, it's his culture as well. And if it continues to die, he will be left with just himself. And that's kinda sad, guys.
Hell, even with that, Malygos could even say that because he was Neltharion's mate once, he blames himself for not catching Neltharion when he fell. He could even say that he doesn't deserve Neltharion's affections now. Maybe Neltharion, after learning this, decides NOT to rekindle the relationship they had prior to the Sundering. Maybe if, given an appropriate time, he could say he doesn't want that relationship now, but just needs a friend. And it'll allow the relationship to develop into something more later. Maybe?
Hell if anything else, due to the relationship between Malygos and Neltharion, it's why Alexstrasza felt rather happy about ending Malygos' life. This relationship has consequences and it can drive so much drama between not only Neltharion but the other Aspects as well. There's so much possibilities for interaction beyond just the thought of Mal and Nel humping. Really guys? Yes the humping was apart of it, but it wasn't all of it.
The relationship affects more than just two people. One of the things I thought about is Alexstrasza and why she hates Malygos so much. She loved Neltharion as much as Malygos. But it was more Heterosexual Life Partners that never went beyond that. Though she did want it to. So when Neltharion fell, she held Malygos responsible.
This is how Alexstrasza sees Neltharion's fall and what she is really saying to Malygos: "Malygos, you were Neltharion's mate. That means that you were responsible for him. But it still happened regardless."
So yeah, unlike a yaoi story, this relationship has consequences.
Alexstrasza: So you wish to rekindle the fires of passion between you and Neltharion, eh, Malygos? I can remember how that went the last time. And you two had 50 thousand years to work on it. But he doesn't need that right now. He doesn't need confusion. And if you think that this relationship will help Neltharion, need I remind you that your relationship with him didn't stop the fall. Ask yourself this; am I going to make Neltharion's unstable condition worse by rekindling the relationship this time? He doesn't need a lover, Malygos. He needs a friend.
To really destroy Malygos and make himself possibly back off from Neltharion, Alexstrasza could use this as well...
Alexstrasza: If you want to be his friend and help him, then be his friend. But not his lover. Not now. Not after the hell he went through for 10 thousand years. The last thing he needs is for you to be his consort after the fact that for the longest time, you hated him. From the moment he fired the Dragon Soul on you, you hated him. I didn't hate him. I still tried to save him. Even after all he did to me, to my love Korialstrasz, what he did to my Prime Tyranastrasz, I still tried to save him. I didn't give up hope that that maybe I could bring him back, I could help him. I still cared. But you...Malygos, you tossed him aside, Cast him out like a defective whelp. What kind of consort are you to do that to him? To not even try? I have done more for him than you ever did or ever will. He doesn't need you anymore, not after what you did. What he needs is someone who actually cares. You had your chance to save Neltharion, well step aside and let the one who actually did save him help him the right way.
There is so much drama, so many avenues we can all explore with this. It could show everyone just how disillusioned and torn the Aspects and their Dragonflights are. The whole idea of Malygos and Neltharion and their flights having such a relationship is also to represent how tightly knit they used to be, and to represent how that is now lost. And it would be a shame that I would have to give potential new ways of developing the characters a toss all because of one person not wanting their ideology challenged. One person who wants to stay safely wrapped in their blanket.
One thing that I've gotten from a lot of people is how much they hate seeing Neltharion always lose, is always distraught, and broken, and failing time and time again. Having Malygos with him as a close, more than friends, partner gives Neltharion that win. And it could help him begin the road to healing himself. Right? Isn't that what we want? Neltharion to finally be healed?
But it could work out differently in the story. The only thing that Malygos can do is just tell Neltharion of their history they had together. Tell him he appreciates the connection they had. But then say that there is nothing between them now.
But hey, you don't have to worry about anything of Neltharion and Malygos possibly humping in the story. I mean after all, Malygos is a ghost, right?
There's nothing to hump. Malygos is dead, he's a spirit. He can only tell Neltharion what they were like together back when the Dragonflights weren't in such a miserable shape.
He's a ghost. Can't hump a ghost. Unless you're Dan Aykroyd.
What if I found a way to bring Malygos back to life?